Before we start, a disclaimer: I understand these websites make it somewhat easier for international readers to receive ARC’s (check out Book Allure and The Book Corps post for two sides of this argument), so this post is specifically referencing me and my experiences/feelings.
Now, back to the post….
I guess you can call this a part two of the Author Interviews Stress Me Out post, though it’s kind of loosely correlated.
ARC’s are cool. I know it’s a big confidence booster when a blogger is granted the chance to read a book before it’s publicly released into the world. And it’s free… who can resist free things? (I don’t trust you if you raised your hand).
I get the majority of my Advance Readers Copies through these websites. It’s easy, convenient and I can keep all my books in one place without the clutter.
And I mention often my want to branch out and interact with authors… and I’ve tried… many times. I’ve only been successful once (and even then I received an E-ARC from Netgalley). And though I am extremely grateful, it’s the feelings I had afterwards.
Because throughout my… trials? When I don’t get an email back, I’m not discouraged. I mean, I’m not motivated either. It’s a stagnant emotion because I have the fallback of Netgalley/Edelweiss. Which leads to the question: am I limiting myself from interaction? Because my anxiety rackets each time I try my luck at a request email. I end up screwing up each time: I’ll forget to add my address, or I’ll forget to add my name (yes, it’s happened T_T) or I’ll forget something so obvious and vital that my soul? just crumbles in embarrassment?? It’s come to the point where I just… don’t because why get all personal with stats and unique views (which took so long to understand what that even was) and selling myself when I can just click a request button? Am I falling into a comfortable cycle? Am I clinging to the safety of an impersonal rejection?
Aaaaaaaannnnnnddddd the thought spiral ensues.
It’s not that big of a deal, but it is something I tend to think about often. Because whether we acknowledge it or not, ARC’s (especially physical ones) give a person a sort of high ranking in the community. And for someone who is still really insecure about this blogging thing even after a year… it’s really hard not to look and say I’ll never get there.
I didn’t start blogging for this reason, but again, it’s still a thought 🙂 .